**Pardon my language, but I'm bout to go on a full out rant for a second... **

I had my doctors appointment today & let me just start by saying, no it did not go the way I wanted. I've already cried til I couldn't cry anymore and now I'm pissed so let me just tell y'all about wtf happened. First of all, today's visit was the fastest fucking visit I ever had!! My appointment was at 11. They seen me, told me what THEY were gonna do about my baby (not what I wanted to do) and got my ass out of there in less then 30 fucking mins!!! I kid you not, my fiancé and I were walking out the building at 11:34 exactly!! They were in such a fucking rush today and I feel like they just didn't give af, which pissed me off! But anyway, this mother fucker came in and said "were not gonna do a full cervix check on you today since you haven't had any kind of contractions yet, I'm just gonna feel for your cervix to see of there's any dilation." I was like fine, okay. Now the whole time he's down there checking this mother fucker is "explaining" to me what they plan to do about my baby. WHILE HE'S FUCKING DIGGING INSIDE OF ME!!! Like bitch you could at least have the courtesy to talk to me when your done and I can sit up and fucking look at you eye to eye and express my views and opinions as well like a normal fucking person!!! So he's talking and says, "here's what we're gonna do, your due date is Friday if he doesn't come by then we're just gonna have you come back in Monday for a ultrasound and a NST test. Then if baby's still not born yet, we'll have you come in again Thursday to do another ultrasound and NST test and if there's still no baby were going to induce you that Friday. " 😑 in my mind I'm just like are you fucking kidding me?!?! Why tf are you sons of bitches making me wait so fucking long?!?! First of all, he didn't even bother to ask what I wanted, second he wouldn't even give me a clear answer on whether I had dilated anymore all he fucking told me was "it's about the size of a fingertip" 😡 like what in holy fuck is that supposed to mean?!? Do I look like I understand your fucking medical terminology?!? And third, I see no fucking point of having to go back Monday and Thursday when you can just fucking induce me before then like I wanted and was planning to ask!! That's a total fucking waste of time and pointless ass appointments to me!!! I've told them over and over the pain this baby is causing in my back. How I can barely fucking walk or move. Why tf can't they just understand the pain I'm going through and go ahead and induce me?!? My baby is fully grown, all organs and what not are fully developed and everything! There should be no problem with inducing me. 😒 Hell they could induce me Monday instead of "running tests" and making me fucking come back then wait til Friday! I cannot wait another damn week y'all!! I fucking hate my dumb ass doctor!! It took everything in me not to cuss him tf out at the moment! 😠😤