So I'm thinking I really need professional help. I have so much anger in me. I treat my fiancé horrible and don't mean to. I feel like part of me is trying to start arguments to force him to break up with me. I don't deserve him. He's so good to me. I purposely says stuff to hurt him but once said I don't mean it. I hate myself. I don't know what's wrong with me. I need help before I snap!