My First Year As A Mom

*trying everything on in my closet and NOTHING fit!

*Sleeping for 40 minutes at a time...then waking up for the day at 4 AM

*feeling like a failure because Ezra had a hard time latching and I wasn't producing as much as he would need

*pumping every two hours on the dot even when I could barely open my eyes

*having the house taken over by baby objects

*turning my closet ROOM into the nursery ;)

*People no longer asked how I was doing and would look for Ezra first ;)

*getting sprayed every time I changed his diaper

*cheering Ezra on as he learned to grab objects, laugh, smile, babble, crawl, stand, recognize his name, recognize us

*close my ears and shudder with every baby dino scream he would unleash on me-sometimes for no reason at all

*small moments of wonder as I cuddle you in my arms

*I wouldn't trade your snuggles for anything in the world!

*picking you up from abuela's house after a long day at work and seeing your face light up, arms wailing wildly

*your tiny feet, and how you're always wearing one sock

*sleep training you while sobbing for hours in a corner of your room, clutching your newborn photos (second hardest thing I've ever done)

*the first time you slept through the night

*turning you into a foodie thanks to my mommy friends for suggesting BabyLed Weaning

*putting away the clothes you've outgrown-again, while sobbing

*finding ways to include you while slowly finding the energy to do things I love like couponing, yoga, organizing your playroom, your books, my closet, and decorating!

*The way you gently put your hands on my face while gazing into my eyes

*the way you twist and turn your feet while I feed you

*our bath times and night time routine is very special for me!

*The way you love Lulu

*the way you've brought daddy and me closer together

*morning snuggles

*I live for your giggles

So much more happened in my first year as a mom. It has been quite the journey for me emotionally and physically. I would do this a thousand times again Ezra! Never knew how much I could love someone until I met you! Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers out there!