I know I've posted a lot today but I feel like I'm giving up. I can't take this pain anymore. I've tried so hard not to complain and just "suck it up" for so long but it's gotten to an intolerable point. I wake up every day miserable and go to bed in pain. I'm so tired of not being able to see, and of my eyes burning...I'm so tired of my ears ringing so loud I can't hear and of having constant headaches. I'm so tired of barely being able to stand up and walk and of struggling to breath because of the medicine they put me on. Im so tired of my eyes twitching and my neck and back hurting and of having to wear sunglasses everywhere I go. I'm so tired of having to fight to put a smile on my face and tell everyone I'm doing okay and act happy because I don't want to worry anyone, and being miserable is no excuse to be mean to anyone. I'm so tired of going to the stupid hospital...I've been in the hospital 6 out of the past 7 days and I just keep getting worse and worse. When they told me today there was nothing to do for my eye pain but deliver me and that they wouldn't until 39 weeks even though I've lost almost all my vision, I wanted to bawl my eyes out. I hardly ever pray but I'm laying here begging God for relief. I need strength and I've just run out..
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I was saying that's extreme for them to say they won't induce you early
@muaah.earthh, that's what I said, I'm really concerned about taking care of a newborn not being able to see and my eyes have gotten worse and worse each week...they had a team of Neurologists and and a Perinatologist come in and they all consulted with the high risk OB. They said the damage already done could be permanent, the medicine they put me on should prevent further damage even though it won't help the pain, and apparently now in medicine they're trying to get rid of the word "term" and have pushed it back to 39 weeks so they said I just have to deal with it
wth, like blindness isn't serious enough! oh darling, what an ass is that OB ! you are at term by 37 weeks,idk why they are doing this .. if I were you , I'd put my foot down because this is affecting your health GREATLY !! it's about you and baby ! and if there's a chance to help you, they should do it, it's their job.. omg I'm mad !! 😡😡😡
@muvah.earthh, I actually was seeing a doctor that was doing nothing for me at all, and went to another who immediately referred me to a different hospital with high risk OB's. It's been a long journey :p
@muvah.earthh, I know I was really hoping they would...the OB delivering me flat out told me today unless there was a risk of me dying they won't take her. I want what's best for my baby but she's measuring two weeks ahead and I'm just like man 😩 thank you so much
@a.claypool13, thank you, I really really appreciate that. I guess I was hoping for some support posting this and haven't gotten any 😞
I'm surprised they won't induce you earlier 😯😐 you'll be in my prayers babygirl
@shayleesimmons, hope things start to get better for you.!
@quea, I'm not sure what you mean by that
@sarahmariemommy2be, I have an eye condition called Idiopathic Intracranial Hypertension. The weight from the baby put pressure on my spine and increased my cerebrospinal fluid, which put pressure on my optic nerves and made them swell. I have extreme light sensitivity and I see black spots everywhere besides all the other symptoms I explained. My eye doctor recommended my baby to be delivered at 35/36 weeks so I won't go blind, but the high risk OB's said the damage I already have could be permanent and I should hopefully not have any more damage with the meds they just put me on so they won't take her.
@quea, it made me upset, like being blind isn't a good enough reason when my baby is measuring two weeks ahead 😑