Thank you @cocored55 I do my best to keep my head up and a smile on my face.

your not a horrible mommy ur normal people give off this impression that pregnancy and post Pardum is always so movie like amazing in reality it's not ! it will get better have faith pray on it and just deal with it one day at a time it will be better some days and suck on others ! but just know it's ok and ur doing amazing !

@kelseys, thank you, my fiancé had to pull me back together and just let me know that I was doing great.

that doesn't make you a horrible mom. We all have our days were it feels so overwhelming for us being mothers. you're not alone. having a 4yr old, a 1yr old and being pregnant again, makes me want to go crazy sometimes from how overwhelmed I get but just remember that you can always come here to talk.