I JUST WANT TO RANT SO ILL PROBABLY BE ALL OVER THE PLACE BUT IF YOU ARE GOING THROUGH OR HAVE GONE THROUGH THIS PLEASE…

I JUST WANT TO RANT SO ILL PROBABLY BE ALL OVER THE PLACE BUT IF YOU ARE GOING THROUGH OR HAVE GONE THROUGH THIS PLEASE HELP WITH SOME ADVICE!!! It is so hard to be 19 years old, & 8 months pregnant with a man that already has kids. (twin boys '3y' & one he claims as his '6y') .... In the beginning of my pregnancy he bragged about how much he was there during his ex's pregnancy.. holding & kissing her belly,talking to her belly, how many nights he stayed up with her while she was sick, & how many times he had to take her to the hospital, how much money was spent throughout ect. I was so excited to be getting the same affectionate attention. but then to be left waiting around to receive nothing. he barley touches my belly, doesn't talk to her, isn't emotionally supportive for me what so ever. one night I was having really bad stomach pains, was crying for hours hunched over couldn't even get out of bed, I was terrified something was terribly wrong with my baby. asked if we could go to the hospital & he wouldn't take me. morning came & I felt better. well, a few days later these pains were happening again! for hours! I was laying on the bathroom floor crying in pain throwing up I couldn't control my bladder & by 2am I begged him to take me to the hospital he finally got sick of me asking & took me. found out I had gall stones. not serious like I thought but WTF! ... From the time he found out his ex was pregnant EVERYTHING was posted on facebook "happy/excited posts" heartfelt posts, belly pictures, pictures of them. He has posted two things about our pregnancy. he still posts constant things about his kids.. which good I'm glad but you do have another baby! .. not that it's really about facebook. honestly. it just hurts seeing it all but can't see anything posted about our baby. or even being happy with me. I've brought it up to him & says he's beyond Happy with me & happy & excited about our new baby, but says that facebook doesn't need to know everything. I don't understand it. what's so different then? am I just being petty about it? also I would like to add I'm not jealous of his ex by any means.. but I guess you could say I'm jealous that I don't get attention like she did during her pregnancy. seriously all I want is to feel loved & be able to talk to him about things without being bitched at or told I'm over reacting or acting "highschool". I'm 8 months pregnant! I just want to be loved on & my belly to be loved on. I just don't feel important. ugh! I've been so emotional today. 😰