I can relate, because I also really didn't want kids when I was with my ex! I didn't use contraceptive, but I was always super worried that I'd become pregnant with him! Now with my fiancée we are super compatible, in love and we are both super loyal and wise and smart in dealing with whatever issues arise, we do a lot of self-development! I couldn't be happier about my partner! When I found out I was pregnant at first I was shocked and really worried, I basically reacter in the way I woulf have with my ex because I hadn't dealt with those feelings, but then as I realised that everything's okay I understood what a blessing it is and started becoming really happy about the whole situation and my fiancée is really excited too 😊
Aww darling I'm so sorry about your mom and granddad that is NOT okay, I can totally understand why you'd not like doctors after that... I've had my own share of bad experiences with doctors too. I really hope you can have a home birth too! I'm really determined to have mine so I'll do whatever it takes to have it happen. I would just not feel comfortable at all giving birth in a hospital and that would definitely bring complications. Yes I want to do water birth! It makes the most sense to me 😉
You'll be such a great mama, you know! I can already see it in you 💕
And yes! It's so refreshing to find someone who I can relate with properly, most people here have completely different ideas when it comes to giving birth and raising kids! Oh, I looove your astrology cloth!! It's so epic 😍

awww ffs soz for language! never had anything before hand due to I used condoms as never ever wanted a baby with my ex no way! my partner is awesome and completely opposite and for once I'm in love :-) yeah I'm the same as the doctor didn't look after my mum or grandad! they died slowly . my grandad was MEANT to get a heart operation over 3 year's ago, then not even a few month's ago he was told he had lover cancer! makes me wonder why on earth did they not see it if they wer supposed to be doing tests and planning a operations. he passed past week. my mum was the same they basically gave her a morphine habit :-( she died to. I wanted a home wafer birth but due to passed losses my boyfriend and midwife say its best to be there at hospital. hope for my next one I can do of at home. going natural but, I'm not using any injections or pain meds, out bodies we're clearly made to handle it. are you having a water birth? I can't wait for mine and defiantly plenty of pix! :-) your right I don't want them away next door in another room away from me, plus read and heard that they don't really like a big wooden cot. the one I want is snug and small like mummies tummy hehe. lost to much for them to be away from me(cue the protective mummy) my mum isn't here neither is my boyfriend's so its in my heart to keep them close but same time let them grow. and I'm planning on breastfeeding for sure. and I'm planning on freezing it to for when my boyfriend is home. love how we are the same ,not a lot of us out there

I checked out your thing and yes it uses hormones :/ I don't trust doctors, I never take what they prescribe me haha. I also want a home birth because I'd feel completely stressed and unsafe in a hospital. I only trust my homeopath and homeopathy are just completely natural types of medicine. I'd like to have the copper IUD as contraceptive when I'm done having babies. You can get ones without hormones. They put it in your uterus and apparently lasts for up to 10 years
That's awesome! Nature truly is our mother and teacher, I'm really happy that I found someone who agrees on that!! Me and my fiancée would probably also be labeled as hippies haha 😜 and about the sleeping near baby, I mean, it just feels natural to you that you'd keep a little baby and toddler that's completely dependant of you and your safety, breast milk and loving care to sleep right next to you right? Like, baby is super close to you in the womb for 9 months straight, putting them in a crib after that just feels insane to me 😔

basically I'd be classed as a hippy and I love it. haha

@miicat, don't actually know if it's hormonal, jeez I wouldn't of used it either :-( hate how some doctors don't explain anything, I was In a horrible relationship with an ex and they basically told me to get it once we broke up. will take a pic of it and put it on comments here, it's awesome :-) . want to get the close to me cot that goes right next to me in bed, had some losses before they ever got to be so want them close. nice cots you get in amazing colour so defiantly want them near, also getting a clip I put on their nappy that will let me know if their breathing is funny, 15 seconds and it will give a little vibration to breath if not then 20 seconds I get an alarms so prepared for sleep(I think anyways hehe) ooh your just like me that's weird(or fate) I want them to learn about nature and draw they tree's, birds insects etc and to respect it. I was brought up on a farm until my dad passed so would love for them to learn what I did. I know that's mad little nature Scorpio twins hehe

@gillibean I see, is it a hormonal type of contraception then? I'm not allowed to, and don't want to use anything with hormones 😖
That astrology cloth sounds awesome! Oh, what kind of parenting will you want to do? I plan to co-sleep, baby wearing, attachment/gentle parenting and a big focus on learning from nature and independent thinking! Our babies could end up being almost twins haha 😁

can't get pregnant for 3 year's. you don't even bleed(well I didn't) bled for a month then nothing. it's the size of a hair Kirby

@miicat, it's a contraception rod that goes into your arm it's called nexplanon its stays in for 3 year's, you get it from the doctor or the sexual health clinics. I got it after I broke up with my ex. put so much weight on me was unreal. yeah I love astrology!! :-) I have a massive cloth on my wall with all them on it hehe. yeah we got told at our early scan it was Halloween then my NHS scan said 29th October, but been told by folk it could change ahhh. xx

@gillibean, Implant? What were you using as contraception? I never heard of an implant like that 😮
Oh my gosh yeah we are gonna have some awesome and crazy Christmas times for sure 😉 Yes Scorpio babies!! My Fiancee loves Scorpios and it's my opposite horoscope sign (complementary) ! Are you also into astrology? I can't wait to know our little treasure's exact birth date and time so I can read the birth chart 💕

@miicat, hehe yeah we actually expected it to be longer, I only got my contraception implant out on the 1st December 2015!! so wasn't to long a wait, think that's why I found out so early. bloody dragged in al tell ya lol. you will defiantly have a lush baba. I know what a Xmas it will be this year for us 4!! ooh not far off me then and a Scorpio like my wee one, I've looked up what they will be like personality wise and it's good hehe.

@gillibean Ohh I see, it's a bit different then, you were fully planning the pregnancy! I'm so happy it succeeded for you 😊 We weren't exactly trying, but we weren't being super careful either, making it spontaneous hehe. Yes I'm confident that we will raise a very wonderful and happy child ❤ Can't wait to see mine either! We are having winter babies 😁 My due date is November 5th!!

@miicat, your not joking! we we're trying since December so knew what to look for and I was taking my temperature every morning along with ovulation tests so was bang on with the symptoms. we did that to went for early scan expecting to be later but was only 7 week's plus and seen our wee tiny Bean's heartbeat :-) I know it's mad how our LMP works. as long as you have a lovely fiancé and a happy life this baby will grow up with great parent's. me either I'm loving it and can't wait to see my baby. when are you due then? won't be long after me,I'm 29th October

@gillibean Ohh wow you found out early!! I was 8 weeks when I did, I only thought about taking a test because my mother told me I had the symptoms 😅 and I had an early scan at 9 weeks 3 days because according to my last period I'd been 12 weeks 3 days already, but then we found out that I had conceived 3 weeks after my last period, so there we go haha. I kinda freaked out at first because I'm still really young, but I have a wonderful loving fiancée and a great support system and now I can't even imagine not being pregnant!!

@miicat, oooh me to, if it wasn't for that I probably wouldn't of known to take a pregnancy test hehe. it's awesome when your nearly there. I found out at 4 week's so took ages but now it's speeding up so all good :-)

@gillibean, I already have the app because I used their fertility tracking one too! 😄 I agree it's so exciting to see the weekly growth and everything! Almost in second trimester! Super excited 😍

@miicat, get the ovia app its awesome you get to see this every week. your nearly joining me in the second trimester and its exciting isn't it xx

@lou, won't take long will it? love seeing this every week makes my day xx

I remember when my baby was that size 😍 now she's like this... grow so quickly! xx

I just hit 13 weeks today!!!

can't believe I'm 14 weeks