I don't think I'm a good mom at all. I'm actually really terrible in my opinion. I yell and swear in front of my newborn telling her things like "shut up" oh my fucking god stop crying. I just can't handle it I get so fucking mad idk why I can't control myself. I'm only four weeks in but damn I miss my old life
You should definitely talk to your doctor right away. Here's a link to find PPD help locally
www.1800ppdmoms.org
it does forcing myself to stay calm through a changing, feeding and then talk her and stuff. makes me feel better
I think all mothers have thought these things more than a few times even if we haven't said them out loud. just leave the room and breathe for a min. try listening to meditation music. it helps so much.
I'm going to go back to school I'm in therapy right now but I already have an hormonal imbalance which doesn't help at all
@stephk4611, that's scary, you need to get help hun. Have you thought about harming your baby? Remember their innocent and don't deserve that at all, maybe let a family member take her while you get help ?
agree with @michelleaaliyah and @mommastone this sounds deeper
I agree with @michelleaaliyah It is normal to be upset times but post Pardum depression can get real bad and this sounds like it. Many women go through this.
Maybe you should talk to your doctor about it Hun it's possible it could be a type of depression since your life has changed since getting pregnant
You just have to keep in mind that this is a whole new world for them. They never cry to upset you or make you mad. Definitely tell your doctor what you just told us. They can help.
I'm back where I was four years ago feeling MORE suicidal than ever!!! my whole fucking life is falling apart. people were right I fucked up my entire life. I can't trust anyone I can't do this. I need to go.
I Have Too Peeeeee Soooooooooo Bad. But I'm Trying To Hold It For My Doctor Appt in 12Mins. Fuck My Life. 😞😒😦😩
I lost my insurance and I can't get any for 12 months. I can't go to the doctor anymore and I don't even know how I'm supposed to give birth. It costs thousands of dollars that I don't have. My life is fucked
Birth Plan Rant
I used to be all about getting an epidural, but after research and thinking about it more I want to have an unmedicated birth (this is my first baby). What annoys me is when I say that I'm going to TRY my hardest to have a natural and unmedicated birth people always feel the need to say that I'm crazy or that I'm going to change my mind when I get in that position. Or that epidurals are the best. I do realize that plans change, but why can't people be supportive and encouraging?
Omg I need to vent something weird just happened.... I'm scared because I thought it would never happen. I was in a deep sleep dreaming about ice cream and then all of a sudden I'm feeling wet spots on my neck thinking my fiancé's cat was in the room so I brushed it off. What scared me was then I felt something between my legs not bothered by it. Then all of a sudden I wake up to a twinge in my vagina only to see my fiancé is fucking me in my sleep I wake and was like scared. So I don't say noth...
thank you.