I hate interviews. they come with a mix of emotions, none of which reflect your true self. today I…
I hate interviews. they come with a mix of emotions, none of which reflect your true self. today I had my PhD interview and at the end I was left feeling unhappy. needless to say I felt it didn't go well. I know 'you can never tell' and 'you probably did better than you thought' but my woman's intuition is telling me..narr. First off I was lead to the first floor and then spent the first 5 mins trying to breathe without sounding like an asthmatic horse...secondly i was only asked 3 questions....which out of my 14 pages of notes I hadn't prepared for! I had to ask him to repeat the questions many times cos I kept forgetting what I was actually answering. after the interview I sat in the car for 30 mins...trying not to cry (a mixture of hormones and dissapointment). now I'm in the phase of trying to justify why I don't need this, ie. I can enjoy maternity leave instead of starting a project when Riley would be 3 months old, at least I have a job to go back to, at least I've had interview experience for when I reapply next year etc. etc. etc.
To be honest, getting so close and then screwing it up is a pretty miserable feeling...one I need to make better by eating many many biscuits #pregnancyproblems
Nads·
Aww I'm sorry hun, sounds like you've not had a good day but you know what they do take nerves and other things into consideration and you may have done better than you think. Don't beat yourself up or get yourself down because you never know until they get back to you and like you said sometimes looking at it from the point of view of "everything happens for a reason" it makes it easier to deal with. Like you said you have other opportunities to reapply so it's not the end for you and maybe it's better to wait until baby is a bit older so it's a bit more easier and convenient for you (if you didn't get through this time) and if you did get it then that's fantastic news!...chin up and do whatever it takes to make yourself feel better xx
mummywarwick·
Oh chicky, I can't pretend to know how you must be feeling but when the brother in law did his thesis and interview I've never seen anyone so stressed. Try to do something to distract you, unfortunately wine is out of the question but perhaps the cinema, you've got a distraction and don't need to talk to anyone. or have a bloody good cry, no shame in it xXx
fred·
Мама троих детей, ждёт четвёртого
by the end of the week, but the finish interviewing tomorrow so I'm guessing they will let the successful ones know wed...@mrsmowmow, xx
fred·
Мама троих детей, ждёт четвёртого
Yeah I feel much better now @mrsmowmow . I've come to the conclusion that if I don't get it it's not the end of the world, I can enjoy my maternity leave and little boy to the fullest. yes I will be sad, but health and happiness is far more important. xx