I can feel so freaking useless anymore. My daughter is 4 days old, and I can't care for her. my pain…

I can feel so freaking useless anymore. My daughter is 4 days old, and I can't care for her. my pain level is so high i can barely walk I can barely make it to the bathroom. I can't hold her because of my breast. I can't carry her because of my leg swelling. I feel like I cant touch her. and shit hit me hard whe. I couldn't even carry her in her first appointment. My mom is quitting her job to help me, and I just feel like horrible. The father isn't around and it just sucks. I don't feel like a mother. I cant call the shots. Im just an aunt it feels like. My mom call the shots because well she is taking care of her. I have no idea what to do anymore. 😞