Combating PPD when there is a new road block every time you turn around is terrible. I started this pregnancy wanting a…

Combating PPD when there is a new road block every time you turn around is terrible. I started this pregnancy wanting a non medicated, no intervention pregnancy and delivery and to exclusively breastfeeding feed. I ended up with Cholestasis diagnosed at 26 weeks, making my body toxic to my poor little girl and an emergency c-section at 36 weeks after 5 unsuccessful attempts at a version. I lost a lot of blood during the c-section and am being monitored closely for the possible need for a transfusion. Baby girl will not latch, has lost too much weight, has low blood sugar levels and has become jaundiced. Now I am exclusively pumping since she won't even attempt to latch and I haven't fed my own child in a day because I spend feeding times pumping. And now the billi blanket and the risk of me going home without her tomorrow. I am losing control by the hour. Please ladies, don't take your healthy pregnancies and children for granted. I would kill just to be able to look into my little girls eyes.