thank girl. @rosalinasmami yeah im just tired of it. i really have tried so hard to over come it but it always comes back. I do have good days but i have nore bad days then good days. Thats why i was conteplating it. Since I feel ok sometimes im like well maybe I dont have it as bad you know??

ohhh mama😔 *hugs* don't feel stupid to ask for help, no matter how long it took you. the fact is you want it and your able to acknowledge it. you need to talk to someone about it and get the help you need, that's what the doctors are there for. they should never judge you. perhaps ask if they can refer you to a psychologist or some therapist you can go to for advice and someone you can talk to. it seems that's what you need. to talk it out and release some tension, and get some solid advice. don't let them just prescribe you drugs.
hang in there girl, don't ever feel ashamed to ask for help. it's hard to ask, but it's a big step and accomplishment to be able to seek it.