As much as I don't wanna admit it I think I'm slowly starting to get postpartum depression and I'm terrified . . . .

Hi there. I had PPD and I would trust your instincts. You know yourself and if you're suspecting it, it's probably true. I put off getting help for too long and that was a big mistake. Getting help and relief takes time so the sooner you start the better. I found a therapist through my pediatrician. You can also find one by searching online. I chose mine because she had a background in women's issues. Best decision ever. I hope that info is helpful. Hang in there! 👊🏼