the weight gain is killing me!!! I was in a size 4p before being pregnant now I'm just huge and freaking out. I hate having an eating disorder!! I'm able to control it more with me being pregnant because I know I have to eat not just for me but for bubs, but I feel sooooo disgusting! I look people that are smaller and I'm envious, I'm hoping I can maintain after having him because if not they already said I would have to go to OP for my anorexia. :( anyone else struggle a lot with an eating disorder??? :'(