this second time I had my first one while still at the hospital and I did the same thing, held onto the bars on the wall, and had the call light in my lap lol I'm a huge wimp but both times wasn't bad at all
don't strain, I sat on the toilet and actually braced myself lol (I was in the nicu hospital with my son) and I had a little chat with God I said "please let this just happen" and it did lol I was terrified the first time