I am beginning to think that I am going to be nervous at every dr apt from now until the end. I get so anxious. I am hoping it goes away after 20 weeks (When we lost the twin). I am so scared of going in one day and something seriously be wrong. God did not give us a spirit of fear so the devil can take a hike. Like now.
Trigger. Lost baby Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?
I'm looking through my photos and I found one of my SO and I. I'm now thinking about how obsessed with him I am. I wanna see you and your man! Go! 😊
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no, his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me and did something else with an other girl.... and it's 10:51 am now and he hasn't texted me at all. and after he dropped me off I texted him saying what I felt and nothing. I don't know if I'm over reacting or what or what should i do. do i wait until he text me?
Feeling so torn right now because they said it's HCG is negative so I am so confused because at first at doctor that I am seeing in ER says it's positive and now my doctor that I just see at doctor office said that's negative?
Eeek went to the dr and I am almost a 1... never really dialated early with the other two... so I got a little excited. She said the baby is measuring at around 38 weeks 😱so when I go next week I am going to ask about inducing.
Shel·
Trust in God he will take away the fear