am I still happy?... I love my husband but I don't know if I'm still happy on this place it's not my husband fault he's trying so hard, it's me I will never going to feel at home in this country it's just that I feel like I don't belong here no matter what I do. this place just feels like will never be home.. I wanna go back to my home country and just start a new life but I don't wanna hurt my husband, especially now we have a precious one. I feel more trap.. I have no choice to stay and wish everything will work out fine that this feelings will go away soon