some of the most fear inducing words a milso can hear is I'm sorry to inform you but you husband/wife has been injure taken or killed in action I have lived through one of the worst nights of my life sitting here wide awake wondering if my husband was going to be alright you take the good and the bad being a military family I'm sorry to put this all out there but I have been crying none stop for the past six hours or so it has felt like eternity since I heard those words and even then it didn't seem real it felt like a cosmic joke or a nightmare I just wanted to wake up and it all be ok