I need to get some serious emotions out for a minute... I was discharged from the hospital today. My…
I need to get some serious emotions out for a minute...
I was discharged from the hospital today. My baby boy is in the NICU. That means I had to leave and go home without him. I live over an hour away from the hospital. Unless you have been in my shoes, you cannot fathom the pain I feel right now. I am so pissed off, angry, sad, crushed, hurt, broken, and torn up inside. If he wasnt in the NICU and was in a normal nursery, things wouldnt be so bad. He's a level 3 which means the most medically needy....the most dangerous type of NICU baby. He brady'ed 4 times today (decreased heart rate due to him forgetting to breathe because hes so young) and I only got to hold him for 45 minutes all day because he can't regulate his temperature yet...so he gets reallly cold really fast. I am so ridiculously worried about him because I am not there to protect him. Im home. All I could do all night was think about him. And cry. My husband is alresdy fed up with me today. Hes tried to do a lot of thingd to show he loves me and to give me a nice welcome home and I have been really edgy and sad all day since Ive been home because of it all. I am just so sad. They dont have live video feed there - that would make things SO much better. I dont like his nurse that he has tonight, she is not nice and talks to me like Im an idiot. I just want my baby boy HOME WITH ME! Every min ute of every day is going to drag that Im not with him, and that hes not home. On top of that I have no Motrin, Im in pain from my csection , I have an itchy rash on my back, stomach, and hands , and my ankles are swollen beyond belief....and I found a HUGE lump in my armpit tonight. I am gonna lay here snd cry till I wake up and go see my baby in the Am. Goodnight mamas.
excitedmom37·
I'm so sorry @sarahemccormick . I can't imagine how you feel. I'm keeping you and your baby in my prayers.
Katie·
Мама сына-младенца
So sorry.. I couldn't imagine having to leave my baby in the hospital, you are soooo strong for what You do and everything you are going through. I hope things get easier and I will keep you in my prayers tonight.
Briana·
Мама двоих (младенец)
Sending hugs your way momma! ❤️
Krystale·
Мама дочки-младенца
that's terrible! hang in there mama and stay strong! sending prayers your way 🙏
Mar La💋·
Мама сына-младенца
So sorry you have to go thru this.sending prayers your way !
missing232user·
Мама троих детей
Crying about coming home without your baby is perfectly healthy! Our newest was in NICU for 10 days. I cried for about 5 days straight - I wouldn't eat and barely functioned. I cried at everything. I was so angry and empty feeling. No one understood how I felt leaving a literal piece of me behind and trusting him in someone else's hands. Our day nurses and the doctor were cagey and if you asked them questions, they acted like you were doing some great wrong. It was beyond frustrating. Hang in there pretty mama. Sending prayers for peace and comfort during your trying time and for little man to make a swing toward coming home.
Heather·
Мама троих детей, ждёт четвёртого
Lord,.i pray you.comfort this Mama tonight. I pray you find some peace. May your baby boy be surrounded by angels while you are not there. You are stronger than you think. You will get to the other side. Only thing you can do is power yourself up so that when you are there, all your strength is too. I don't know if you are a believer. But all i can say is turn it over to the highest power. He is above all. there will be a calm to your storm. Press on mamma. You are courageous! We are all here waiting for the good news to come! This too shall pass! xo
missing41user·
Мама троих детей
I am so sorry you're going through this. I pray the Lord heals your baby quickly and comforts you during this time.