I keep telling myself not to be so selfish but woth these hormones and a few things in the past I…

I keep telling myself not to be so selfish but woth these hormones and a few things in the past I can't help but feel jealous. My husband's grandpa is in the hospital getting radiation till the 24th, he has incurable lung cancer that travelled to his brain :( and every day day since he went into the hospital we've been up there with him even after they moved him to a bigger hospital 1 1/2 hours away because he's a great man and we want to be there with him. But my husband said last night before we left that we probably wouldn't come up today but when we finally made it home last night he asked if the kids and I were going with him. I was really hoping that since it's V day and it's a weekend so our kids are home we could spend the day as a family. I know this is selfish of me because his time with his grandpa is limited and God willing him, I and our kids will have many many years together. I just cant help being disappointed. am I being a terrible person??? *sorry to go on and on!!*