Now most people don't know the whole situation between my baby dad and me. And to them this post might sound childish. But here let me tell all of you Mommies and Soon to be Mommies.
I was in love with Adi's father, my first and what I thought only love even though we broke up 2 years ago! I always wanted him back even though he would cut me down constantly, spread the worse kinds of stuff about me. Until I just stop. I was just a dumb bitch in his past. Then he messages me out of the blue this summer. And my heart is racing like maybe he wants me back. Maybe there's a chance he might still want me. Well we go to his friends house and he completely ignores me after we have sex. He made me feel sooo fucking cheap and this is the second man I ever slept with. I lost my virginity one month before sleeping with him. But he made me feel worthless that I wanted to leave and the feelings were gone! I was free of feeling like I needed this boy in my life I was free from thinking I was in love with him. I never wanted to see him again or talk to him. Until Two weeks after that and I had a positive test in my hand. The feeling was unbelievable. I finally said "fuck the dude", and here I was pregnant. He denied it of course. Told all of his friends that I was just craxy and obsessed with him, until I had my first ultrasound. Then it was another man's baby. Denied Denied Denied. Ignored. Ignored. Ignored. He ignored me everytime! Invited him to appointments and ignored me never showed up. Then I found out the sex Nov 10. I told him of course which he basically ignored as well. Until he went to New York. He moved to New York One week after me telling him it was a girl. He messaged me saying he was moving. And then two weeks after he moved he messaged me saying I should have an abortion. I was 6 months pregnant i was feeling her move hearing her heart beat had her named picked out and everything and he tells me we should have an abortion. Because "If I move back to PA its only for that kid and I wont be happy and I wont love it and I dont love you." Well that broke my heart so in my pissy ass attitude I told his stupid ass to stay in New York and don't worry about Adi. He got extremely pissed off. Then it turned to 'you won't keep my child away from me!' Then to the crying over the phone of how much he messed up. And how much he was sorry. And how much we should get an abortion now Im seven months pregnant when he brings it up again. And the amount of anger I had for this boy just blew. After a 10 hour fight over the phone we settled down and said our peace and stayed civil. He would ignore the fact that I was pregnant and I would keep reminding him that I was (to be a bitch). And then out of the blue he starts to ignore me again. I love this boy i really do, Ive been in love with this boy for 2 years. But today seeing him on facebook flirting with some fat skank really REALLY hurt me and made me more pissed off than ever. Ignored me for three damn weeks. My confusion is giving me strength I must admit. And that is why I posted this out. So he knows he is un welcomed. And that I do know Adilynn will be growing up without a father until I find someone worthy of our time. And it's not like I'm keeping her away from him. More like he's not going to make the habit of popping in and out of her life when he wants to. So like my post says. I'm Mommy and Daddy. 😉 I'm done crying and stressing over someone who doesn't care for anyone but himself. I love my babygirl and I can't wait to meet her. I wish her dad would get his head stuck out of his ass but we will do without him.