So i havent told a soul besides my mother who was there at the time, stepdad , and of course the babies father. I had the usual second trimester anatomy ultrasound at Loma Linda. She had fluid in her kidneys and a hole in her heart...okay i cried not going to lie. i would give up my life for her to be healthy. I didnt nessacarily get over it but i listened carefully. They said this is commonly found in children with DownSyndrome. Okay. i can manage. I've worked with special needs kids all my life. I love kids and see no difference in them no matter what. My mother is an eccentric believer, and by eccentric i mean ECCENTRIC. Like everything terrible to have happened is the work of the "enemy" or devil as some refer to him as. I agree....to a certain degree. Then there was my blood testing she is at high risk for having it. Okay, i accepted it. I will possibly have a gorgeous beautiful and special little girl. In my eyes she will be perfect in every way. No difference. But to my mom, im wrong she believes she will not have it. Im utterly wrong and so are the doctors. In her eyes im a crappy 'believer' because i choose not to blame anyone for my beautiful miracles possibility of health. I feel as though my mk other is resentful of me because she unfortuneatly had a miscarriage in early april. We all suffered because of it. But she acts angry and spiteful towards me if I am cradling my stomach, or playing with my daughter. I feel trully awful but it kills me to be here i feel overwhelmed and alnost like a nuissance. I swear religious differences can ruin a relationship sometimes. 😳😕😟