so, super late, no money for a pregnancy test so I have no clue. Dr. appt on Wed and I'm nervous. on the outside I feel and look calm but on the inside I'm all panicky and nervous and so stressed from bills, I feel like I'm going to burst. I've already cried today and SO tried to make me out to be a bad guy and couldn't even ask me or talk to me about why I was crying or how I feel. I really want to have another kid but at the same time I don't like I am worthy enough to be a mom, I feel like I'm failing my son. I was offered a job, I'm currently being trained for but I don't get it until I have my car, I can't get a car until I get my tax money, I won't be getting any tax money because its all going to bills. over the winter we hit rock bottom for 2 months, due to the weather/season my husband couldn't work, he does Pest control. I have been looking for a job since my 2 former bosses (whom both promised me a job after I had my son) refused to hire me back because of not enough funds, only to hire 3 other people at one job and 2 others at my other job. I've had 2 interviews all year. I'm not depressed, I love spending time with my kid, I'm just down today and I feel completely worthless.