This may be the end fro my grandmother. i am beside myself and trying so hard to keep it together. but this woman is everything. She was my second mom. she taught me nearly everything i know. i was the first grandbaby, and had her first great grand. now she has somewhere around 18 grandkids. i cant even keep count. my heart is so sad. it sucks. im not even close to being ready. and the thought she wont be here to meet my Cooper is tearing me up. i have to take my 9 year old to see her today and i am trying so hard to not let him see me so upset. Life is so unfair sometimes. i don't want her to live another day in discomfort, but i dont know what i will do without her. Gosh my heart is just splitting in half. Lord give me strength!!!