Let me start by saying I feel beyond blessed to be pregnant. My husband and I lost our last baby and this baby feels…

Let me start by saying I feel beyond blessed to be pregnant. My husband and I lost our last baby and this baby feels like an absolute miracle and that's why we aren't finding out the sex. We just want a healthy baby! With that said I'm still human! I've been sick recently due to not sleeping and it's been taking a toll on me. I cried all day today. I feel lonely. No friends ask me to do anything anymore and one of my best friends planned a whole trip (that I thought I was joining on) without me and they leave for Ireland today and I think that's why I'm so down. It's just hitting me and I think sleep deprivation just made the emotions intensified. I even feel like my mom hasn't been around. My sister just had her third baby 5 weeks ago and she's always there and I understand why. Helping do their kitchen back drop and curtains and watching the kids and she hasn't even seen my nursery yet. I registered alone and it was a sad feeling. Am I being selfish- probably but I can't help that it makes me feel sad inside and I hve no one to talk to this about. I don't want to say it to my husband because he's amazing and tries to do everything for me. I just needed to vent and this seems like my only place to do so. Sorry for the long post.