Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

all pregnant women complain we're pregnant we have every right to complain doesn't matter if your early in pregnancy or late in pregnancy I complained everyday of my entire pregnancy because it really sucked for me and I'm only about to be 39 weeks so I'm gonna complain even more

Well here I am 3 weeks PP! I'm actually 6 pounds under my pre pregnancy weight! Oh and let's ignore my new lovely c section scar lol... ;)

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,

his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...

Is it bad that I don't take my prenatals ?! They made me extremely sick at the beginning of my pregnancy and since I'm still throwing everything up I just don't take them 😪