grandfather died a year ago today (jan.17th) wasn't able to attend the funeral, still haven't been able to visit his grave site. I'm all alone. my ex best friends is trying to rekindle our friendship. I'm still 3,000 miles away from my husband. I've been up since 6:30 this moring it's not 11 and I'm up thinking about this shit while listening to fucking socer the world's worse fucking sport with all the God damn lights on down stairs that shine in my room with the door closed! I'm about .2 seconds away from flipping shit literally!