When I was pregnant I had this vision of how my labor and delivery would be and what it would be like to get to hold him after he was born. Unfortunately no one warned me it might be far different from that. I didn't get to see Joseph when he was born. They let me kiss him on the forehead and then they took him and his dad away to the NICU. I'll never forget watching them run out that door with you, or how blue you were. Due to my csection I couldn't go to the NICU for three days to meet him. My first sight of him he had breathing tubes in his nose, a feeding tube in his mouth, an IV in his hand and one through his belly button. I felt so helpless and the worst part was that I wasn't allowed to touch you. My heart was broken. All I wanted was for you to be okay and in my arms. My fiancé had to go back to work immediately after he was born so I spent my time in the hospital alone. Four days after I had you I wobbled down to the NICU because my section was still healing, and I'll never forget the nurse who told me I was going to hold you that day. I'll never forget her face. I got to hold you for the shortest half an hour of my life and i had never been so thankful, for the fact that you were alive and you were going to make it. And the fact that you finally got to know what it was like to be held in your mommas arms. Finally. No matter how much you cry and scream and no matter how much sleep I loose I will never ever take you for granted or regret you. Because at one point in time I thought you might not make it. So every single I moment I have with you is a moment I will cherish. I love you Joseph Scott Ray Bohannon❤️