I miss my baby.. :'(

I remember a friend of mine who lost her baby when I was about 34 weeks pregnant and I thought that was so rare and it never crossed my mind it would happen to me. You just never know, then 4 weeks later I laid in a hospital bed and cried until I fell asleep, then woke up and pushed and then cried some more until I fell asleep again. He's my little angel no matter what. I just wish I could hold him and see his smile.