I feel really scared. This is my first pregnancy and it came as a shock. I got married and then got pregnant 3 weeks later. I have been going through a difficult time. for the past 20 weeks I have felt scared and not sure how I will handle having a child. I love kids. I'm just terrified of medical stuff. seems like my appointments are filled with panic. most people in my life tell me to be happy and trust in God. honestly I'm sick of hearing that. I feel how i feel. some tell me to just stop being negative. but honestly, all I have done is try to keep a positive attitude and try to reach acceptance. I found out I was having a girl 2 weeks ago and I felt happier than I had been. Sometimes I just feel sad and like I'm losing who I was before pregnancy. Sometimes I feel selfish and like I would have wanted to start my career and settle down first. but I try to believe that everything happens for a reason. and as much as I'm starting to bond more with my soon to be daughter, it doesn't change those moments where I wish it would have happened later on. it doesn't change the struggle of having to change my life around. I'm in constant ambivalence. I know I will love her and I'm sure she will change my life for the better. I'm just so scared and lost at times. Sometimes all I want is someone to be there without the constant negative advice or trying to change how I feel. I process change through facing various emotions. when I'm told to feel a certain way it makes me want to shut down. I know I will be a good mom and try my hardest to make it work. rant over.
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couldn't have said it better!! @sandracosgrove some ppl will just say something to have something to say, thinking they're helping! im on daughter number two and i still tend to feel this way. im not married or anything, but my first daughter's father is so helpful, it makes it bearable! being pregnant for me is like being a big baby wishing i could just sit in his lap all day. sometimes that's what we need! does hubby help comfort you?
If you ever need to talk you can always message me to vent or talk whatever you need, I'm here for you. This may be my first pregnancy but I've been a natural with the whole motherhood aspect according to people close to me.
@sandracosgrove, that means more to me then you know. I wish some people in my life were this supportive. but yeah it's about the will to get through it and acceptance that it didn't happen on my timeline. but that's life. things don't always happen when we want them too. it does feel like a storm at times. but when I change my negative thoughts and think more positive I feel better. I just have moments where I need support. thanks for that. :)
You are who you are for a reason sweetie. You feel what you feel because that's the way you cope with things that you don't understand or feel scared over. It's a natural instinct in some people. I honestly think your doing good with coping with your feelings and things that are scaring you and there's nothing wrong with that. Be true to yourself and your baby girl that is growing inside of you. Life may seem to be a storm right now but you will be able to make it through the storm and ride it out without any issues if you so choose to. If you can understand what I mean. Just take it slow and breathe it will be fine in the end.
@grahamgirls, @sandracosgrove my hubby is very supportive which helps.