No problem! It was the first thing that came to mind when I thought of your situation and healing yourself and your family 💜

@tahtahme that's amazing and fascinating to me! I'm so happy you shared this. 😊

They are great for prayer and meditation and spiritual healing, as well as grounding yourself and general womb wellness. And of course is an ancient way of doing kegels--keeps the yoni strong!

It cant get stuck, but if your muscles arent strong OR if the type of egg is doing a bunch of healing, it will nestle deep and stay there for a few days. But in the centuries of its use its never gotten stuck :) It began in Ancient china with jade, I believe, but ancient Africa and places in India been using it for almost the same amount of time

@tahtahme I've never heard of that, very interesting! They are pretty too. What if it gets stuck, though? Lol I'd be the one that's happen to. Haha

I got mine from the shop NouriEnergi on etsy.com

This site is informative, but I got my eggs from a different place... www.yonisteaminstitute.com/yoni-eggs.html

Also has crystal benefits...I have an Obsidian and a Lepidolite

@tahtahme what is a yogi egg?

@tahtahme I haven't touched my crystals in a while. I have some sage and an abalone shell, too. Maybe I should engage in a little prayer ritual when I get back from the store. It can't hurt! 💕

Yes! Maybe get a yogi egg, my crystals totally help ground me and see a path. Marriage and pregnancy is hard....I can NOT imagine being a step parent on top of me!

@tahtahme that is sound advice. I will definitely try that approach. Thank you for chatting with me. Being married is soooo hard. Especially when you are a parent and a step parent and expecting, again, with all of the other ups and downs in the mix. I'm having a tough day. I think it might be time to pull out my gemstones and do a little prayerful soul searching. I'm feeling hopeless and tired. 😓

Maybe you need to use stronger and firmer language. Like straight up tell him (kindly of course) that he has a temper problem...it sounds like he does. It is best i agree for you to remain even tempered and calm, but there's going to only be so long you can (and should) shoulder all responsibility on that front. I am sure he will eventually make smaller steps in the right direction, especially if you remain steadfast and don't buy into his games or ego when he starts getting rude. Don't be snotty though, or holier-than-thou whatever you do!

I don't want to walk away because I have faith in him and I see his potential... Not something many people have shown him in his life. I just wish he could see what I see.

@tahtahme only time will tell. As far as I can see, so long as I remain calm and be diligent about doing my best not to let him get to me with his verbal attacks, and set an example, maybe he will learn.

I try to avoid arguments or discussions because I find he isn't able to be rational and calm and openly discuss anything without getting angry and resorting to the unwanted behavior. It's unfortunate, because as a person that suffers from anxiety and understands how hard it can be to be rational and calm, it's a much more constructive approach to things, especially in marriage (I've learned this the hard way, through my own mistakes). I just can't figure out why he hasn't learned the same lesson, yet. It's frustrating. We could be so much more successful, together, if he realized how far kindness, patience, passion and genuine constructive communication can take us.

@tahtahme yesterday was a lot better, but I never know what is going to set him off and/or when it might happen, again.

@tahtahme I spoke very calmly and openly to him about how I was not okay with it, needed it to stop and that I am not going to raise my kids that way. I was very respectful and remained in control of my emotions while conveying my viewpoint. Even though his reaction wasn't what I needed and certainly didn't help, I can only hope he realizes that that type of behavior only pushes me away and makes it harder for me to want to keep trying.

I hope he realizes how serious it is getting for you...

@tahtahme I don't want to leave him. 😢 I'm hoping for the best. I never know what to expect. I just hope I don't get let down again.

Its so hard being a stepmom already without having to deal with that 😥. Do you have any other options though? Do you really think you will be able to leave with the youngest while your pregnant? Maybe you should see what he chooses to do on the 31st...

I am convinced he will never understand or humble himself/squelch his pride long enough to resolve this and change. He will just act like everything is fine until it happens, again. Our anniversary is the 31st. I've expressed to him how I would love to make the day something to remember. I'm beginning to convince myself I shouldn't expect anything at all.

I try to talk to him, I do, calmly and rationally and respectfully. @tahtahme I just get met with attitude, dismissal, anger and excuses as to why the behavior is justified. I'm so sad over it, I'm sobbing, praying for God to take the hurt off of me bc I can't take it anymore.

that is awful and you are correct he shouldn't act that way, especially consistently on special days. you have really got to talk to him about his attitude in front of the children if he expects you to be able to raise them right, especially the older 2!

@tahtahme that's the beauty I'm holding out for. My heart is so broken over the lack of genuine care and romance/effort and lack of concern for how he treats me in front of my children when he is bothered or angry. My bday was terrible bc of this and this Christmas Eve has ended up being the same. I don't understand and I feel no one deserves to have to feel this way. The last thing I wanted on my mind as I lay trying to fall asleep on Christmas Eve is how much longer this is worth it to me to keep doing. I'm so so so sad and my heart physically hurts.

😞 At least you have all those beautiful children counting on you and that are so excited for tomorrow!