Thank you both so much. I just have to get through this pregnancy. I'm moving near my aunts and cousins after the birth to have help with the baby, and I'm all set up there with specialty mental health treatment for pregnant/postpartum women. I actually had to go inpatient on a psych unit when I was 13 weeks because my depression was so bad. Don't ever want that to happen again, I have to get better for my baby boy

but you can definitely talk to me whenever you need to and if you want/can you can text me I'll private message you my number.

Do not feel down on yourself for feeling this way. My Mom passed in 2010 from "unknown causes". She never got to meet my Daughter and my Mom wanted a granddaughter so badly. She won't get to meet this baby either. It breaks my heart. I'm here if you ever get lonely. My Family lives in a whole other state so it's just me, my bf (the father), his family, and some friends.

honestly I don't even know I met my fiance and I've slowly been getting there, I still feel like I'm dying inside everyday from losing my son but I know he'd want me to be happy about his little brother or sister, me and my fiance who raised my son from 2.5 months old to the day we lost him miss him everyday and we always talk about him but I don't know how I got back on my feet.

Wow @mamaofangelbaby0610 I cannot imagine losing a baby to SIDS..... Thanks for the words of encouragement. How did you get back on your feet?

it's hard but I promise it gets better.

I know how you feel, my ex Decided he didn't want to be a father to my son and my mom never got to meet my son because she committed suicide in July of '09 and my son was born August 14 of 2014.