I am still not ready for this post...but sooner or later it had to be done...yesterday was the WORST day of my life because I lost my little one at almost 18 wks...contractions started saturday afternoon at 5pm and I gave birth to my baby yesterday morning...didn't leave the hospital until 8am yesterday. People keep saying it's not mt fault but I can't help but to feel guilty because my baby was perfectly healthy i even saw the baby moving around in the ultrasound at around 8:30pm...the problem was my freaking weak as cervix that had dialted without me even knowing and it was too late to stitch my cervix and try to keep the baby because sooner or later the labor was going to happen. on top of that the hospital service was horrible and I eneded up giving birth to my 18wk baby on my own in the room with my mother & fiancé...no doctors or nurses...I can't take the pain and have tried to sleep through it because everytime I am awake I can't help but to just cry and blame myself and miss my baby wishing it was still in my belly. what hurts me the most is that the baby was PERFECTLY HEALTHY and the ONLY reason I lost the baby was because of MY cervix😞 this pain will never go away...I love my baby sooooo much and miss my baby soooo much...how I wish my baby was still alive inside of me...cant help to be angry with myself...nobody told me I was high risk...or my cervix was weak...I am still young and you best believe I will have another baby soon...I just wish I had MY baby NOW in my belly and not in heaven😞 I LOVE YOU & I MISS YOU MY ANGEL BABY👼 I WILL NEEEEVEEER FORGET YOU AND I AM SOOO SORRY😢
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my mother had the same issue. she lost my two brothers before finally being told about the cerclage and injections by another hospital and that is how i was born. these doctors are so negligent sometimes.
rip beautiful angel 🌸
i am so sorry for your loss 😢 i remember when we talked weeks ago about the goodwill job.
I have the same issue. and I'm so terribly sorry for your loss. I've lost two babies due to my cervix. and I'm now pregnant for the 3rd time. I had a cerclage placed at 14weeks & have carried my baby the furthest yet. I'm now 29 weeks and my little girl is very healthy in there. I just want you to know that it's not your fault and there is hope. When you do get pregnant again please be on top of your doctor's & demand a cerclage, it works. there also an injection called makena that helps with preterm labor. good luck sweetheart
so sorry for your loss... sending prayers to you and yours 💕
omg I am so so sorry 😢😢😢 I want to cry FOR you, I know the pain of loss..but I cant even imagine losing a baby at 18 weeks 😢 Prayers for you on this day...and please, please, don't blame yourself. Its not your fauly you had an incompetent cervix, it could happen to ANYONE. All my love, and just know you will see your angel again one day
this brought me to tears... i am so sorry for your loss and my prayers go out to you ♡ we are all here if you need us.
I'm sorry to hear that sweety my prayers go out to u!
I went through the same exact thing at 24 weeks 3 days.
I hope you can find some peace with yourself. positive vibes your way. RIP angel.
😢😢😢😢 read this post and started crying I am so sorry for your lost. I can't imagine either
Oh my god Gloria I had no idea. I'm so sorry. 😔 I can't imagine
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
What am I missing here you leave me time and time again and still I give you chance you continue to break my heart....am I wrong? Not to wana have a baby with a man im not with
these women wishing death on babies, is seriously pissing me off!! I had a stillborn at 31 weeks, it's not something you wish on someone, or a baby who hasnt got to experience life! if you wish that I hope you rot in hell!!👌🏻 this is not how someone wants to take their baby home, I had to take my first home in an urn, wishing death on a baby or person period is sick, how would you feel if someone said that to you? you wouldn't like it! and in my opinion if you're gonna wish death you dont deserve...
You know what my wish would be? I have made such amazing friends on here, you ladies are as close to me as my own family. My wish would be to plan a meet up in about 1 years time we can all meet somewhere in the world with our little ones. Because we ALL will be blessed with our babies by then PMA! I would just love to meet you guys in person, your amazing. HUGS to all and mega baby dust to those trying
happy birthday to my sweet angel baby mrs aubree, I miss you and love you, I wish you were here so we could celebrate❤❤
Omg girl !! I just read this I was thinking about you I'm so sorry this happened !! If you ever need to talk message me idk if u still have my number but if you do feel free to hit me up your still an amazing mother do not forget that and you did everything you possibly could do not blame your self you did not know !! Take your time to grieve it's okay .. Your angel baby knows how much you loved it and is watching you and knows you will make the best choices I'm so sorry for your loss I'm going to keep you in my prayers ❤️❤️❤️❤️