I am still not ready for this post...but sooner or later it had to be done...yesterday was the WORST day of my life because I lost my little one at almost 18 wks...contractions started saturday afternoon at 5pm and I gave birth to my baby yesterday morning...didn't leave the hospital until 8am yesterday. People keep saying it's not mt fault but I can't help but to feel guilty because my baby was perfectly healthy i even saw the baby moving around in the ultrasound at around 8:30pm...the problem was my freaking weak as cervix that had dialted without me even knowing and it was too late to stitch my cervix and try to keep the baby because sooner or later the labor was going to happen. on top of that the hospital service was horrible and I eneded up giving birth to my 18wk baby on my own in the room with my mother & fiancé...no doctors or nurses...I can't take the pain and have tried to sleep through it because everytime I am awake I can't help but to just cry and blame myself and miss my baby wishing it was still in my belly. what hurts me the most is that the baby was PERFECTLY HEALTHY and the ONLY reason I lost the baby was because of MY cervix😞 this pain will never go away...I love my baby sooooo much and miss my baby soooo much...how I wish my baby was still alive inside of me...cant help to be angry with myself...nobody told me I was high risk...or my cervix was weak...I am still young and you best believe I will have another baby soon...I just wish I had MY baby NOW in my belly and not in heaven😞 I LOVE YOU & I MISS YOU MY ANGEL BABY👼 I WILL NEEEEVEEER FORGET YOU AND I AM SOOO SORRY😢
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my mother had the same issue. she lost my two brothers before finally being told about the cerclage and injections by another hospital and that is how i was born. these doctors are so negligent sometimes.
rip beautiful angel 🌸
i am so sorry for your loss 😢 i remember when we talked weeks ago about the goodwill job.
I have the same issue. and I'm so terribly sorry for your loss. I've lost two babies due to my cervix. and I'm now pregnant for the 3rd time. I had a cerclage placed at 14weeks & have carried my baby the furthest yet. I'm now 29 weeks and my little girl is very healthy in there. I just want you to know that it's not your fault and there is hope. When you do get pregnant again please be on top of your doctor's & demand a cerclage, it works. there also an injection called makena that helps with preterm labor. good luck sweetheart
so sorry for your loss... sending prayers to you and yours 💕
omg I am so so sorry 😢😢😢 I want to cry FOR you, I know the pain of loss..but I cant even imagine losing a baby at 18 weeks 😢 Prayers for you on this day...and please, please, don't blame yourself. Its not your fauly you had an incompetent cervix, it could happen to ANYONE. All my love, and just know you will see your angel again one day
this brought me to tears... i am so sorry for your loss and my prayers go out to you ♡ we are all here if you need us.
I went through the same exact thing at 24 weeks 3 days.
I hope you can find some peace with yourself. positive vibes your way. RIP angel.
😢😢😢😢 read this post and started crying I am so sorry for your lost. I can't imagine either
Oh my god Gloria I had no idea. I'm so sorry. 😔 I can't imagine
Omg girl !! I just read this I was thinking about you I'm so sorry this happened !! If you ever need to talk message me idk if u still have my number but if you do feel free to hit me up your still an amazing mother do not forget that and you did everything you possibly could do not blame your self you did not know !! Take your time to grieve it's okay .. Your angel baby knows how much you loved it and is watching you and knows you will make the best choices I'm so sorry for your loss I'm going to keep you in my prayers ❤️❤️❤️❤️