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I am still not ready for this post...but sooner or later it had to be done...yesterday was the WORST day of my life because I lost my little one at almost 18 wks...contractions started saturday afternoon at 5pm and I gave birth to my baby yesterday morning...didn't leave the hospital until 8am yesterday. People keep saying it's not mt fault but I can't help but to feel guilty because my baby was perfectly healthy i even saw the baby moving around in the ultrasound at around 8:30pm...the problem was my freaking weak as cervix that had dialted without me even knowing and it was too late to stitch my cervix and try to keep the baby because sooner or later the labor was going to happen. on top of that the hospital service was horrible and I eneded up giving birth to my 18wk baby on my own in the room with my mother & fiancé...no doctors or nurses...I can't take the pain and have tried to sleep through it because everytime I am awake I can't help but to just cry and blame myself and miss my baby wishing it was still in my belly. what hurts me the most is that the baby was PERFECTLY HEALTHY and the ONLY reason I lost the baby was because of MY cervix😞 this pain will never go away...I love my baby sooooo much and miss my baby soooo much...how I wish my baby was still alive inside of me...cant help to be angry with myself...nobody told me I was high risk...or my cervix was weak...I am still young and you best believe I will have another baby soon...I just wish I had MY baby NOW in my belly and not in heaven😞 I LOVE YOU & I MISS YOU MY ANGEL BABY👼 I WILL NEEEEVEEER FORGET YOU AND I AM SOOO SORRY😢

14.12.2015
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mrscruz0530
🎀Jacqui🎀·Мама двоих (7 лет, 9 лет)

Omg girl !! I just read this I was thinking about you I'm so sorry this happened !! If you ever need to talk message me idk if u still have my number but if you do feel free to hit me up your still an amazing mother do not forget that and you did everything you possibly could do not blame your self you did not know !! Take your time to grieve it's okay .. Your angel baby knows how much you loved it and is watching you and knows you will make the best choices I'm so sorry for your loss I'm going to keep you in my prayers ❤️❤️❤️❤️

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nymom
Ny Mom·Мама двоих (9 лет, 13 лет)

my mother had the same issue. she lost my two brothers before finally being told about the cerclage and injections by another hospital and that is how i was born. these doctors are so negligent sometimes.

rip beautiful angel 🌸

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nymom
Ny Mom·Мама двоих (9 лет, 13 лет)

i am so sorry for your loss 😢 i remember when we talked weeks ago about the goodwill job.

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kelsiwilson421

I have the same issue. and I'm so terribly sorry for your loss. I've lost two babies due to my cervix. and I'm now pregnant for the 3rd time. I had a cerclage placed at 14weeks & have carried my baby the furthest yet. I'm now 29 weeks and my little girl is very healthy in there. I just want you to know that it's not your fault and there is hope. When you do get pregnant again please be on top of your doctor's & demand a cerclage, it works. there also an injection called makena that helps with preterm labor. good luck sweetheart

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jashmen
jessica·Мама сына (9 лет)

I am soo sorry my heart goes out to you 💕❤💞

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missing6user
missing6user·Мама четверых детей

so sorry for your loss... sending prayers to you and yours 💕

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mrs.cervantes
Sarah Cervantes·Мама дочки (9 лет)

Sorry for your loss. You are in my prayers❤

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monique08

sorry for your lost

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ngujen
Jennifer Nguyen·Мама дочки (9 лет)

I'm so sorry for your loss :((

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mrscaldwell6
💙Jessica 💙·Мама четверых детей

I'm sorry Hun sending prayers

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mommy2jaidyn.noah
Ashley Lopez·Мама сына (9 лет)

I am so sorry 😞

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josiahsmommy219
Keyundra Campbell·Мама сына (9 лет)

Omg no I'm so sorry. Prayers for you 😢

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missing74user

omg I am so so sorry 😢😢😢 I want to cry FOR you, I know the pain of loss..but I cant even imagine losing a baby at 18 weeks 😢 Prayers for you on this day...and please, please, don't blame yourself. Its not your fauly you had an incompetent cervix, it could happen to ANYONE. All my love, and just know you will see your angel again one day

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hellokarly
Killomi D.·Мама сына (9 лет)

this brought me to tears... i am so sorry for your loss and my prayers go out to you ♡ we are all here if you need us.

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mommy3
kristy·Мама подростков

I'm sorry to hear that sweety my prayers go out to u!

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mama2dlt
Rebecca Tucker·Мама дочки (9 лет)
стикер
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1534
1534·Мама сына (10 лет)

😢😢 I'm sorry for your loss

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hward12
hanna ward·Мама сына (12 лет)

Praying for you and your family!

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novasmommy1121
Kayleigh·Мама дочки (11 лет)

I went through the same exact thing at 24 weeks 3 days.

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zombiemombie
bryanna·Мама двоих (9 лет, 11 лет)

I hope you can find some peace with yourself. positive vibes your way. RIP angel.

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shortizzie
Megan Morgan·Мама дочки (10 лет)

I'm so sorry.

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browneyedmom
Nikki·Мама подростка

my heart and prayers go out to you I'm soo sorry!

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ehamp86
Erica·Мама четверых детей

I'm so sorry😢😢

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missing268user

I am so sorry:(

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rhia
rhiannon·Мама троих детей

Im so sorry for your loss

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greedypreggo970

😢😢😢😢 read this post and started crying I am so sorry for your lost. I can't imagine either

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missing58user
missing58user·Мама сына (9 лет)

Oh my god Gloria I had no idea. I'm so sorry. 😔 I can't imagine

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