I feel so numb. Forced myself to eat and couldn't taste anything. I haven't stopped crying since this morning. Friends are trying to be there for me but I can't listen to the "everything happens for a reason" and "God didn't want this for you right now" speeches. My mom wants me to come spend the night but I can't get out of bed. I just want my baby. I want everything to be how they were. I have a home and stable job while the birth mom lives off fucking W2. She says her mom and sisters will help her raise the baby she reassured me daily was mine. I haven't felt this type of pain since the loss of both sets of twins 😪 please tell me this is a nightmare and my baby is still mine 💔