So, today the birth mother and the child's father were supposed to give up their rights to me. I was so excited. o made sure I put on my nicest dress and made sure my hair was all nice. We sat in front of a judge and we told us everything we knew. The birth father signed his rights away with no problem. It was the birth mother's turn and she told me that she could not sign. I instantly stopped breathing. She was talking about how I could be the baby's God mother. I told her, very calmly that for the time being, I could not be around her. I was not angry at her; I just could not look at her and that baby knowing what should have been. She decided to tell me that I was selfish and could not understand why I was acting like this since she's allowing me to see the baby. I stormed out of the proceedings crying and wanted to go home but I remembered that my house is newly decorated with baby clothes, a crib, and more. I can't explain the feeling I have right now. I just want to numb all the feelings and forget it all. To lose this child...I just can't move, breathe, process any of this.
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I have been reading your posts from months ago all morning long and just got to this one. I am truly sorry for what you are going through. I am going to pray for you. God is good and his timing is perfect, don't you ever give up! God is going to bless you even more when you least expect it. Wait on it. God bless you so much. I am here if you need to talk.
@kaygrig @rebcamdot @mrsschutte1323 @rhia @babypiedra16 @lucylu2 @breloya @nikkisummers @searrahmone @mommy_11_12_15 @dontberidiculous @babyboy1202 @kmally @mrugg thank you all for your comments. Its just something I have to grieve almost
I'm so sorry I can't believe she did that to you. You are not selfish and have every right to be upset with her. I don't think I would have been so nice leaving they court house. @jaye.gatsby
Thinking of you ❤️ I can't imagine the hurt you're going through. Like she would lead you on like that. If she had any doubt she should have told you.
Oh, that's just awful. I'm so sorry you're going through that. I promise you, everything will work out the way it's supposed to. I know that doesn't help the hurt you're feeling now. I'll be thinking about you in the coming days. What she did to you was wrong. Stay strong, keep the faith and just keep moving forward. It will all work out the way it's meant to. XOXO
I'm so sorry. I wish I could hold you right now. The asshole should know exactly why you reacted the way you did. What SHE did was selfish. How dare she. I agree with @breloya. It definitely shouldn't have gone so far if her trifling ass knew she wanted to keep the baby. (Sorry for the foul language, I'm pretty livid for you).
I am so sorry @jaye.gatsby
I hope that God comforts you during this time of loss. God has a special plan for you & one day you WILL get your baby 💙💙💙
Honestly, that was my biggest fear for you when I read that you were adopting. I feared that someone would back out; one of the parents, not you. I'm so sorry and heartbroken for you. I can't even begin to fathom how you are feeling right now. And for you all to be in the process of finishing that, and her to tell you then and there. It shouldn't have even gotten that far if she knew she had changed her mind. I pray for you, that she reconsiders because for her to lead you on for so long, that's very wrong. You saw that baby as yours and were excited, brought baby items. I'm just, I'm sorry that happened to you. I truly am. 😔😔
Praying for you!! May God grant you the strength you need at this moment!
OMG... I am so sorry to hear that @jaye.gatsby I pray that God gives you the strength to get through this and if you need to talk I will be more than happy
I'm so sorry. That's one of the worst things that can happen in this type of situation and she is the selfish one. NOT YOU. You spent this whole time thinking you were going to have a baby. Your baby. And to have it ripped away from you is just.. It's tragic. And being told you can be the god mother is like a slap in the face. I'm so so sorry this is happening to you. You do not deserve it.
My heart is broken for you @jaye.gatsby I am so so sorry that you are going through this! God bless you, please message me if you want to talk, I can't imagine what you're going though but I can listen! I have good friends that are unable to conceive and have had a terrible time with adoptions not going through, it's a great loss and I'm so sorry you're experiencing it.
Omg I haven't checked preggie in a few days and decided to check today, I cannot believe this... That is terrible. Shouldn't have told someone and made them believe they were going to have a child to turn around and back out. I am so sorry .... Your time will come. Keeping you in my prayers . 😔💝