I just can't seem to shake this postpartum depression phase. Like even when I'm trying. My bd will text me and ask about the baby and I don't even want to text back Just cause he plays a role in this depression. But I also don't want to keep him from seeing his son so it's so hard.
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no, his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me and did something else with an other girl.... and it's 10:51 am now and he hasn't texted me at all. and after he dropped me off I texted him saying what I felt and nothing. I don't know if I'm over reacting or what or what should i do. do i wait until he text me?
so depressed. I feel so depressed today af is due today. And hasn't shown. But for some reason I feel depressed. I was having really bad back cramps that came and went. And idk I feel like the test yesterday was just an indent or something. Because I caved and tested this morning and it's the same thing.... So I just don't even know.ugh why does this have to be so draining.
Literally have no friends or pt people to text haha every friend turned their backs on me or just don't get my pregnancy or SO issues and I kudu keep to myself. 🙄
I have been so depressed for the past 6 months I feel like just ending everything I don't want to be a mom I don't even want to be on earth
i just came to the realization that i have no friends , nobody texts or calls me anymore and its kinda depressing 😩
Brianna·
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