I'm feeling super envious and jealous tonight and while I know I shouldn't I just feel like I…

think of it like this you baby will be smarter and know that not every thing in life is handed to you. he will learn you got to work for the things you want or need. he I'll be able to survive on his own long after your gone. as for the other kid he won't have any clue what to do.

thanks for the uplifting comment, that really helped a lot. @lilmomma1415

I'm sorry :( I know ur struggling and this is going to sound stupid but your baby won't remember what their nursery looked like or what kind of stroller or carseat they rode in. he is literally only going to care about where his mommy is and he's only going to notice the love that you shower him with not the things you buy him. I had my first son super young living at my mom's and struggled so much in had my second son when we had alot of extra money laying around and my bond with them is equal. I know it sux but don't be so hard on yourself. you got this ! and don't be afraid to go to second hand stores... babies dont use their stuff very long so it's practically new anyways :)

that's how I look at it and me and my husband are living in a hotel and I see the same stuff and all I think is it will show him the truth about the world not the lies

@lilmomma1415, is so right! my first son is going to be so down to earth and know what life is really about and my second one is going to be my spoiled brat who is going to expect things to come easy in life... me and my husband talk about this alot lol

I'm only 17 so I know how hard it is

I would love to go to second hand stores except they're all 30-45 minutes away from where I live! I just hate how these two things are supposed to be "fun and exciting" for mom's and I didn't get to experience the fun and exciting part @akelly16 @lilmomma1415

you could use facebook swop and shops and ask for donations

that's how I got a pack and play bassinet and a car seat

😰 this is hard but when I posted something similar you were the one who inspired me and uplifted me,💙 our babies are almost here and I don't get to do those things either,😣 its heart breaking you had told me to set up a baby corner not that I have any space but we managed and I wanted to thank you for that.

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I hate asking for donations because I feel like there's always someone out there who needs it more than I do. @lilmomma1415

I do to but then I think about my son

and the way I'm doing it is when I'm done with mine I'm giving it to some one else its kind of like a pass it on deal

see my boyfriend and I wouldn't be struggling as hard as we are if it weren't for his baby mama who is aware he makes quite a bit and gets paid weekly and is always asking for large lump sums of money for whatever it way be, like 150 dollars every time he gets paid and knowing my boyfriend since its for his son he's going to do it. (But I see through her lies and honestly she just wants extra money for her life style) She says its for food or she couldn't pay her bills or something but her car is paid off and she works at a bank and gets paid a lot and we ran into them in Walmart and she had both her boys at least 100 dollars worth of toys each in the cart and she's always getting her hair and nails done but is still asking for 150- 200 dollars every week and since we too have bills the money dwindles fast and he's afraid if he tells her no she won't let him see his son because she's done it before. @lilmomma1415

fight for costdy

she refuses to take it to court and he is afraid he'll lose because we still live with my mom. which we plan on sharing a house with my mom and sister anyway since bills will be cheaper but she is just money hungry and loves to take his money. She told him he HAD to buy his son this toy for Christmas that is 60 dollars... and it was a must. Also said he needed to give her 150 dollars by thanksgiving and he needed to buy his 3 year old son a new TV... and his son sleeps with her. I think that visitation would be a great option because then he'd never have to worry about pissing her off. (She also cheated on my boyfriend around the time he was conceived so I think she's a tad bit afraid he's not my boyfriends) @lilmomma1415

get him tested