please no judgement.
i love my daughter to death. but i dont feel like shes mine and I'm always sad when i have her around. im always looking for someone (trusted) to watch her so i dont have to because the only time i feel like i dont want to die is when I'm not around her. i dont miss her when shes gone.
its so bad my mom offered to adopt her but i dont wanna let go of her because i do love her so much.
i feel like such a horrible mother.
i get upset with her even though shes only a month old. and want to throw my head in a wall.
am i just not cut out for this? should i just let my mom take her?