thank you so much @yummycake i will definitely look into that video. thanks again!

i know exactly how you feel. unfortunately depression is very bsd. it kills. there is a youtube video. a man who studies depre$ion at harvard or some other fancy school says its one of the worst diseases and he makes it clear that it affects a person mentally and physically. it really opens ur mind to the magnitude that depression is. so next time u feel like beating urself over how u cant function. just pretend ur battleling cancer. and ask if ud expect urself as that kind of patient...to function better than what your doing. on this note. if u ccan find therapy in anyway. be through aa meetings or here. just talking and sharing ur worries will help ease ur struggle somewhat. find reach out for ne opportunity for help. hugz. just keep trying. dont give up on improving or pushing urself. but dont let depression make u feel like a bad mom because that is what it wants.