I was just thinking about how I really want to cherish every single moment of this pregnancy, both…

I was just thinking about how I really want to cherish every single moment of this pregnancy, both good and bad, because this is my very last baby. After this, I will never experience the joy of seeing two lines come up on a test again, or the joy of telling family, and breaking the news to my husband...I will never experience an ultrasound and seeing my baby for the first time, or hearing their heartbeat in utero. I will never again experience the first kicks, or the funny feeling you get when the baby has hiccups, or buying their first outfit or even giving birth. I will never again experience morning sickness, or any of the other bad symptoms that might come along with being pregnant. For me, being pregnant, although hard at times, is one of the best feelings in the world - and this pregnancy means a great deal to me, because I was told I couldn't ever get pregnant again due to adenomyosis causing too much scar tissue. Yet, here I am! I just have to say, its obvious God wanted me to have this baby, because we've already beat the odds plenty, and my precious baby survived a pretty bad subchorionic hemorrhage and is still, by the grace of God, alive and well. This is also a child created out of so much love between my husband and I - and the first baby we have had while married, believe it or not. I will enjoy every minute that I carry my baby till the end. This baby is a blessing. Even in the hard times, I will count it as a blessing and a miracle. I love my baby so much already. I will surely miss it when its over. Sorry for the super long post, just needed to get this out tonight.