for anyone who has kept up with my story... I was 32 weeks along and for two days I tried to get doctors to give me an ultrasound since my uterus was growing 4cm a day and measuring 39 weeks along and Noone would give me one. I cried and begged and all I would get was a non stress test which said babyboy was fine. on Saturday Oct 10 around 10 pm I began gushing blood, in total it was 2 pints. my placenta had ruptured and was poisoning not only my baby but myself. at 1:03 am on Sunday the 11th my baby was born with no heartbeat and not breathing. the amazing doctors in the nursery did compressions on him for 13 minutes while I was still unconscious from my emergency c section and rushed him to a NICU about 40 minutes away. today he is 3 days old and is being held for the first time, his vitals look good but we have a long road ahead of us. the nicu is a scary place to be but I have fallen in love with his team and they have an amazing plan for him. I thank God every second I'm and wake for this little blessing and although this has already been such a trying experience both emotionally and physically my husband and I are finding strength in each other.