It's almost over. Even though mentally I can't get as excited as I want to. Already living with major depression and anxiety from childhood trauma, the miscarriage before this where I was so ecstatic to be pregnant and lost it, and I keep seeing people on FB whose babies are dying right after birth or 2-3 months later and it's freaking me out. I can't mentally handle anymore tragedy, so my subconscious will not let me have any positive feelings about things so that I'm always prepared for devastation. I can't wait until the 30th for my 3D ultrasound though, I do wanna see his little face.