Today is my last day of maternity leave. I know that I've been blessed to have been home for 12 weeks. But I'll miss her so much. I'm in the criminal justice field & my career protects her & society. I know my career is a great one. But I'll miss my 11 week old so much 😓
Trigger. Lost baby Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?
My doctor said he would induce my labor at 38 weeks, if my baby girl still had growth issues and if the percentile dropped to 10 or less. Last thursday, it was 10 percentile, and he said if she didn't come on her own by 38 weeks, he would induce labor at that time. I'm 36 weeks 1 day today, he said my cervix was super thin, and 1cm dilated. Is there a possibility this can change... that my doctor will let her just come on her own? I don't want to be induced, i would much rather her come on her own when she is ready to come ! As much as I am anxious to meet her and have her home with me, those last few weeks of brain development and lung maturation means so much more to me! I'm hoping and praying that things turn around, and I don't have to get induced. I'm surely going to talk to my doctor about it Thursday when I go back.
I know my man gotta hustle and make that Mula but I'm so tired of bae working over time I hate being lonely all day and I miss him so much grr ugh 😢😣
My sweet baby girl gained her angel wings this morning. She was my best friend, my true love my everything. She was so happy and beautiful, I'm struggling to say good bye. Sleep tight princess, mummy and daddy love you very very much ❤
So idky I thought we'd have a 16 Week scan 🤦🏽 ♀ like I was so siked because it's spring break week next week and it would have been my daughter's first time seeing baby! Nope, not until 20 weeks 🙄 lol So babe and I decided to go ahead and schedule a 3d/4d ultrasound on Saturday! I'm so excited. 1, because since I know it's a boy I kind of want to see a penis for confirmation 😂 and 2nd, because my daughter will actually realize that a baby is really in my tummy 😂😂 (the ultrasound will do it for her, she's been asking to go! 🥰)
