crying , afraid , broken , misplaced , misunderstood , lost , alone ....
everything is going wrong at once .
being asked what's wrong only makes it worse .
can't seem to get away from the stress .
my heart is caving in ,
the emotional pain is killing me .
I'm hurting all physically , emotionally & financially .
I'm delivering literally alone .
not my mom , my baby father , no one will be there.
if it was possible , I wish at least have my daughter by my side but she to young to understand .
both my brothers in prison & they were my only father figure.
I have people who say they are my friends but don't show it ,
I text just to see how they doing and when I'm ready to vent never get a reply .
I spend allot of my time writing in my book just to vent but it's still with me regardless ,
I have literally cried a week straight . struggling to stay awake because my eyes are dried out from crying can my life get any worse ..
left the love of my life , single , young mom of two , brothers in prison , heart messing up .
still can't let everything flow out 💔
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Prayers for you love. stay strong. God can make a way 😘😍 Have faith and stay strong ..
I totally understand. Huggles. Feel free to message me if you want to talk. And I can give you my cell too if that helps. Everything happens for a reason. The fact that you have so much insight say volumes! You'll pull thorough even though it feels like the world is crashing down on you. I totally get how you feel. 💕
So my water just broke and I have no idea what I'm supposed to do and I'm home alone
Having some pretty intense constant lower back pain and maybe super light contractions. But can't tell because the back pain is way over powering contractions so I'm walking around my room to see if they get worse.
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I used to be all about getting an epidural, but after research and thinking about it more I want to have an unmedicated birth (this is my first baby). What annoys me is when I say that I'm going to TRY my hardest to have a natural and unmedicated birth people always feel the need to say that I'm crazy or that I'm going to change my mind when I get in that position. Or that epidurals are the best. I do realize that plans change, but why can't people be supportive and encouraging?
so I need some advice, I'm currently pregnant from a man who is married with a ten year old. he says he married her because they were young and how he was raised that if you get someone pregnant you have to buckle down and be a man. now that I'm pregnant he says my child has to be a secret. no family from his side and none from myself because I have no family. I feel like my child is coming into this world like a burden from him. and I have no respect from my kids father . even worse he sleep...
I'm such a sucker for these!! Unfortunately I'm rocking the baby to sleep and I have no clue what color my underwear is. I'll have to get back to ya'll!!
thanks y'all .. 😥 my pain runs deeper than the ocean !