I wrote this on Facebook 1 year ago today (august 28th) and I feel the same exact way today as I did when I typed this out a year ago! this was also the first post I wrote on here when I joined! (; my baby peanut is still only a dream & will be in my belly as soon as I am blessed from the lord above! 💙💚👶🍼💜💛

To my future child:

Dear peanut,

Mommy is writing this letter to you while you're still just a dream and there's a spot reserved for you in my heart. I have been dreaming of you since I was a little girl. playing with my dollies as if they were my own baby, feeding them, changing their pretended diapers, changing their tiny little clothes. ever since then I couldn't wait until I was old enough to have you in my tummy. although mommy thought the Big Bird, the stock, would drop you off in a big diaper or you would appear in mommy's tummy magically. Now, many years later, mommy is still dreaming of you and waiting to feel you growing in her tummy. I can't wait to see that positive pregnancy test to tell me you're on the way, to hear your heartbeat for the first time. and knowing you're safe and warm and growing, to see your first picture while still growing in mommy and to find out if you're going to be a boy or girl. Then the amazing moment when I first feel you move. Until then, I think it will still seem like a dream but the first kick you give me to let me know you're there will be the most beautiful moments of my life. while mommy waits for you to finish growing, I will be getting ready for your arrival. I'll be getting your nursery ready, will be picking out your crib and all the other things to make you nice and comfy and safe in your home. I'll be searching for the perfect outfit for you to come home from the hospital in and all the onesies, pajamas, bibs, and so many other items, each and every one picked with love. Soon, it will be time for you to enter this beautiful world. I will cherish every moment we have together. watching you grow, seeing that first smile, learning to crawl, seeing you walk for the first time and so many other milestones. I wish I could freeze each and every one of those moments in time but seeing you grow is a precious gift.

So, my dear baby, mommy can't wait till she is finally blessed from god to have you in her tummy, so i can hold you in her arms, next to my heart, where you will always be.

I love you!

sincerely,

your mother (to-be)