Not sure who reads what i post but if you do you know some struggles iv had in marriage and just life itself has been a…

Not sure who reads what i post but if you do you know some struggles iv had in marriage and just life itself has been a challenge and well my hubby been gone for 8 weeks to 29 palms and then back for 1 week then to korea for 3 weeks and now back for 2 days and right now he is in the field and will be back friday and then leaves again monday for 2 weeks in the field... I feel very depressed and alone cause when he around i try to have him feel Landon and it seems like he isnt interested and our marriage has been on a very huge downward spiral and he finally deciding to help me work on it and make time for me and i got these messages and it makes me feel good he actually planning things for us to be together and just that he is trying. I am just scared of getting my hopes up and him being like this once then nothing again... Bad enough he getting deployed just days after Landon is born for 8 months minimum and im on my own and i dont even have anything for him. Not even a car seat or bath wash. (in debt from moving yet so struggling bad!!!) Really just hoping something gives and I can just breathe cause right now I feel depressed and like everything on me and all I do is cry...