Rant ~
I woke up in a bad mood and it just got worse. My husband left my laptop running all night and it was thrown on the couch where it over heated. He's out of a job at the moment and we're staying with my parents till the baby is born and we can find a place to live. My hormones are all in a jumble and it's hard not to scream. I'm sweating (which I never do, seriously) and I think I'm having hot flashes! My face is broken out like I'm 15 again! This is the third trimester! Why am I getting new symptoms?! Ugh. I worked on my hospital bag last night with my husband and I learned I wasn't fully prepared. We don't have really "newborn" clothes. And the clothes we do have don't match the hats and mittens...and my nesting instinct is going MAD! It's causing me so much anxiety right now. Not having the money to go out and buy a onesie or anything at all is seriously ripping at me right now. I can't work and I REALLY want to. But I can't even stand long enough to make dinner most days. My perfectly able husband has been out of work for months. He quit his job after being threatened to be fired shortly before my second trimester. He's a good man...but right now I am really having trouble remembering he's a good man...all I see is my mother once again having to save my ass. It makes me think marrying him and deciding to have a baby was probably not very well thought out. Maybe it's just my emotions all a wreck...but I'm not sure if things will be worse or better after Joey is born.
Oh on top of it all...my best friend of ten years won't talk to me. I really never felt so alone. I know she has a life too...but right now I'm a wreck and have no one to tell all this to.
~ end rant...
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Do you have any hobbies that you can start making money with ? Also has hubby been looking for work ? He has to man up because he has a baby on the way because quitting a job because of a threat wasn't smart at all knowing you all have bills and a baby on the way. Also try not to buy too many new born clothes because your baby will probably grow out of it in less than a month. See if your friends or family member can throw you a baby shower or baby sprinkle so that you are blessed with items you need for the baby .
i am really sorry to hear this! sending you good vibes wishing today gets better for you!
I crochet...and I'm thinking I'm going to have to start selling stuff like that just to do the extra things for myself and the baby. I depend way too much on my mother right now. My husband has been looking for a job and has had like one interview. Seriously don't know why he can't find a job! He's 35 and a skilled worker!!! We could live on minimum wage!!! That's the sad part...he can't even find a freaking pathetic job like that at 35 years old. I don't have any newborn clothes...I have more like 3-12 months from my shower. My shower was a few of my family members one of my friends and his mom and his moms best friend. So we didn't get hardly anything useful. No one even bothered to look at my registries. I put things on it that were probably 5x cheaper on the thing and people still opted to buy CRAP that has NO USE for my baby boy. I got a damn baby doll from my aunt. I seriously don't even need to think about it. Makes me sooo mad. I do, and have done SO much for my friends and family and the only person even here to talk to is my mom. Sure goes to show you that you can't count on getting anything back from helping people. Literally my nerves are shot and I'm a pathetic emotional wreck. @phasion