having a hard time accepting my pp body....I feel like I am just a milk machine/rocker for my son...I wont stop breast feeding and I love how attatched he is. I feel like it would be a lot easier to deal with if I felt attractive(is that bad?)...my bf dosnt notice me at all and I have worked hard to be back down to prepregnancy weight in a month...thats 40lbs!

I was totally fine with my pregnant body, I have loved every moment with ny sin so far. but I dont like my postpartum body...and my bf isn't helping...i feel so unatractive now. i know i cant have sex right now but my bf hasnt tried to do anything! no cuddles...he hasn't even made out with me...just the standard kiss when he leaves in the morning...

hands free pump bra is a lifesaver!!!!!

dr had to reschedule my app tomorrow...really not happy. I told them I have to have afternoon app. because he isnt aleeping well at night so i dont get any sleep until 8 am...the rescheduled to 10 am...if i dont make it i cant get him in again for 2 weeks...but he needs blood work done...ugh no sleep for this mom!

ok I finly have some time to post my labor story!
so I went in to the hospital at 6:30 pm to be induced. when i was admitted i was only 1 cm dilated and still pretty thick. so they gave me the pills to soften my cervix. by my third dose I started having strong contractions, like active labor contractions so they stopped the pills since i wasnt dilating. they waited a few hours and tried again. youn are only supposed to have 6 doses of the pill but by the 6 i was only 1.5 cm, but thinner. so the...

i have never worried so much in my life! parenthood is stressful XD

Tomorrow will be day 4 and My milk has not come in and its like I am not producing enough colostrum even though I am letting jasper feed whenever he wants...feeling pretty defeated....

tmi post: was totally scared to poop after labor because of all the stitches I have and just the pressure from gas kind of hurts. but i finally did it and I feel a thousand times better and it did not hurt like I expected it to!!! thank god!

jasper is latching well and has taken to feeding pretty great! doctors are concerned about his jaundice levels but hopefully his feedings will flush his system. 2 wet diapers already today!

jasper areived at 6:20 am!