Even tho my second kid father doesn't want the baby. I still miss him around. We was just good…

Even tho my second kid father doesn't want the baby. I still miss him around. We was just good friends and I think me getting pregnant ruined that for us . I just wish we could see eye to eye . I hate his guts but at the same time I miss him laying beside me at night . 😔 Am I crazy or is this just my hormones